Confused Soul

This would be one of the most memorable high lights of my life…to start blogging to gain a little panacea for all the things that brought me confusion. I am so confused with what I really wanted to have in my life and sometimes I wonder why I am becoming like this…It is just a question of being satisfied with what i have right now or what i truly feel. Ah! That’s life and that’s the real thing…

It has been one year already since I have started writing a book with a title ” Bakit Berde ang Kulay ng Aking Dugo ?” with an English translation of “Why am I Green-Blooded?”, i just had to stop finishing it because the flow of my life has just changed and because again, I am a little bit confuse of what I really need to tell about myself. The book is actually my autobiography and I have never intend to broadcast my life…as a matter of fact it contains sensitive stories that would shock my family and the entire community!

Along with that book is another story entitled ” Of Dreams, Reality and Pride” which is actually intended to inspire people…but later on, I just have to cancel and stop… Then, I have this concept of making a story entitled ” Kathmandu: Love Knows No Limits” but there was this movie “Batanes: Love Knows No Boundaries”, it’s like a similar theme but mine would focus on how I inspired one lonely soul from Kathmandu, a Nepali of course and how my life turned out to be colorful…

So many stories, so many things undone…this is actually my life! It is a portrayal of how I manage myself, always a start but has no definite end…

On this moment, I have just to enjoy myself with someone I have just loved so much and I know the status of our relationship. Yes, we are friends but I don’t see that…I am convinced that he is more than a friend to me but I know he can’t be mine…So sad to think of that but I am just enjoying the present…

Confused! That’s me… There are so many questions that bother me so much and I ended up asking the usual questions again and again and I never stop thinking…